Not just me

My goal is to reach 5 dan in 5 years (well, 4 years now).  But not just me -- I want the rest of my club (those who are not already there) to reach 5 dan with me.  We have a lot of low-dan and SDK players in our club.  I'm hoping we can all push each other and climb together.

This is kind of the opposite of what a student of ours said last year.  When getting ready for our exam, this student wanted to be able to bring graph paper.  I pointed out that I couldn't allow that, because then I would have to let everyone do that, and then we'd have to check that the paper everyone brought in didn't have any writing on it and it would take forever.   This student (completely serious) said, "No, not everyone -- just me."

Meanwhile, I'm hurtling toward D league in AYD.  I've lost all three of the games I've played so far.  (Ugh!  I just can't get my head in the game after working all day and with a full day following.)  My first game actually wasn't too bad:

(;GM[1]FF[4]CA[UTF-8]AP[CGoban:3]ST[2] RU[Japanese]SZ[19]KM[7.50] GN[2016-09-06a]PW[Michel Babany]PB[Becci]DT[2016-09-06]EV[AYD ]PC[Toronto]CH[1] ;B[pd]C[White: Michel Babany Black: Becci ]N[Michel Babany vs Becci] ;W[dc] ;B[pq] ;W[dq] ;B[co] ;W[cl] (;B[dn]C[This is not the proper move.] ;W[gq] ;B[bq] ;W[nc] ;B[lc] ;W[qc] ;B[pc] ;W[qd] ;B[pe] ;W[pb] ;B[ob] ;W[qb] ;B[oc] ;W[qf] ;B[ic] ;W[ci] ;B[qo] ;W[oq]C[Michel and I both thought this was a good move, but In-seong says it just helps Black.] ;B[op] ;W[nq] ;B[pr] ;W[np] ;B[oo] ;W[jp]C[Black gets a strong shape and sente to play the right side.] ;B[qh] (;W[rf] ;B[og] ;W[gd] ;B[ce] ;W[cd] (;B[ch] ;W[de] ;B[di] ;W[cj] ;B[dh] ;W[ek] ;B[gh] ;W[id] ;B[jd] ;W[ie] ;B[hc] ;W[ih] ;B[gj] ;W[bn] ;B[bo] ;W[gl] ;B[gf] ;W[ge] ;B[ig] (;W[jg] ;B[if] ;W[jf] ;B[je]C[This cut is good for Black.] ;W[jh] ;B[hk] ;W[jk] ;B[hl] ;W[jm] ;B[gm] ;W[fl] ;B[im] ;W[fn] ;B[gn] ;W[en] ;B[jj] (;W[kj] ;B[ij] ;W[ki] (;B[jn] ;W[km] ;B[kn] ;W[lm] ;B[ip] ;W[iq] ;B[hp] ;W[hq] ;B[kp] ;W[jo] ;B[ko] ;W[io] ;B[ho] ;W[jq] ;B[in] ;W[kq] ;B[mo] ;W[nn] ;B[no] ;W[ke] ;B[kd] ;W[le] ;B[lg]C[This is painful for White.] ;W[nb] ;B[na] ;W[ma] ;B[oa] ;W[md] ;B[mb] ;W[qj] ;B[mh] ;W[kf] (;B[ql] ;W[nj] (;B[ol] ;W[rh] ;B[qi] ;W[ri] ;B[pj] ;W[hi] ;B[gi] ;W[hj] (;B[gk]C[This move is a mistake. Black had a chance to kill the large White group in the center. ] ;W[ik]C[But after White cuts, game is ok for White.] ;B[fb] ;W[cr] ;B[br] ;W[cn] (;B[do]C[This is a mistake. ] ;W[bs] ;B[ep] ;W[fp] ;B[eq] ;W[er] ;B[fq] ;W[fr] ;B[dp] (;W[fo] ;B[dl] ;W[dk] ;B[cm] ;W[bm] ;B[dm] ;W[bk] ;B[fm] ;W[el] ;B[em] ;W[pk] ;B[qk] ;W[rj] ;B[oj] ;W[nk] ;B[ok] ;W[sm] ;B[mr] ;W[mq] ;B[rm] ;W[sl] ;B[sk] ;W[rk] ;B[sn] ;W[rl] ;B[qn] ;W[nr] ;B[be] ;W[bd] ;B[ff] ;W[eb] ;B[fc] ;W[ed] ;B[jl] ;W[kl] ;B[il] ;W[kk] ;B[cq] ;W[dr] ;B[hh] ;W[ii] ;B[nl] ;W[ml] ;B[mj] ;W[ni] ;B[lj] ;W[mi] ;B[li] ;W[lk] ;B[lh] ;W[mk] ;B[gp] ;W[df] (;B[bh] ;W[oh] ;B[pg] ;W[nh] ;B[ng] ;W[bf] (;B[bi]C[Black missed a chance here.] ;W[al] ;B[bj] ;W[an] ;B[ef] ;W[fd] ;B[dg] ;W[cf] ;B[mn] ;W[fa] ;B[gb] ;W[os] ;B[ps] ;W[mc] ;B[la] ;W[ld] ;B[ga] ;W[kc]) (;B[aj]C[Black can kill by playing here.])) (;B[bi] ;W[bj] ;B[bg] ;W[dj] ;B[ad] ;W[ac] ;B[ae] ;W[bb]C[This way, the game is good for Black.])) (;W[dm]C[White can kill by playing here.])) (;B[cq]C[Black can live by playing here.])) (;B[hh] ;W[ii] ;B[ik] ;W[gk]C[Black is afraid of this cut, ] ;B[fg]C[But Black should be able to live here. Then White is in trouble.])) (;B[mj]C[Black should look for a strong move for separating White.])) (;B[mj]C[Black can jump here -- the whole White group is so weak.] ;W[lk] ;B[nl]TR[qj]C[Black can capture the marked White stone as a bonus after attacking the whole White group.])) (;B[kk]C[Black should cut directly.])) (;W[ij]C[Again, White should hane inside.])) (;W[hg]C[White should hane this side.])) (;B[de]C[Black MUST nobi here -- just can't give White that awesome tiger's mouth. (I'm learning how to use these attachments, and still not doing very well.) ] ;W[ed] ;B[dh] ;W[ch] ;B[cg] ;W[bg] ;B[bf] ;W[dg] ;B[eg] ;W[cf] ;B[df] ;W[cg] ;B[bd] ;W[bc] ;B[ff]C[Looks fine for Black.])) (;W[qg]C[This is the proper move for White.] ;B[ph] ;W[pj]LB[og:A]C[Later, this is the place for White to invade. White aims at A.])) (;B[eo] ;W[fp]C[If Black jumps out, the two Black stones become a burden (with any pincer).]) (;B[gq]C[So Black should consider this counter-pincer.] ;W[ep] ;B[jp]C[If White comes out, Black should just give it away. ] ;W[dn]C[Even if White comes back, Black can still do something in the corner.] ;B[qk]C[So Black can leave it and play for the right side.]))

In the review of my second game, in which I lost to someone whose username is "shtfrbrns", In-seong basically said that sometimes I play well and sometimes I play like crap (this is not quite the way he phrased it) and he didn't really know what to say. It's totally true, and I don't have an answer for it either.